I’ve noticed that all my friends have been fading from me for awhile now. I’ve just never said anything about it, because it doesn’t bother me that much but sometimes I feel empty. There are friends where I am close with in class only, mutual friends, and my “close” friends. I don’t think I have that “best friend” figure in my life anymore. Every single one of my friends has gotten super close with someone else. Of course, they’re still my friends but we don’t have that bond that we used to anymore. I just feel like we only speak when we have something going on in our life. Other than that, we don’t chill or talk often, because they’ve found someone else. It’s cool though, because I don’t usually hit up friends unless I need to ask something but still it would be nice to have a friend where I can have 24/7 all to myself.

I want a friend who I can spend hours talking to them about everything.

I want a friend who I can be with for hours and still be laughing my ass off.

I want a friend who I can absolutely be myself. around

I want a friend who  I can depend on with my life.

I want a friend who will always be there for me and stay loyal to me.

I want a friend who will stay with me for many years.

I want a friend who does everything and anything with me.

I want a friend who I can say they are like my sister.

I need a best friend

I feel so bad that you drove all the way from Tacoma and up to Renton.. Lol, but it’s okay because you like driving. Hahaha, but still it was very sweet and I had such an amazing time. You made me laugh a lot, and I got to know you a lot better. It was cute how you told me some of the personal things you’ve never told anyone before :) it shows that you can trust me. It was pretty cute how you made little remarks once in awhile about me, lol. I know you like me haaaa. I had such a great time with you yesterday, and I cannot wait for Friday! :)

Started talking at a party & instantly clicked. Hahaha he’s cool and pretty cute :) had no idea he was interested until the car ride home. Lol

I’m over it. I’m so sick of it. I’m done crying over you. I’m done being frustrated by this. You were my issue and now you’re not. I’m not going to let you be the reason why I’m crying, because I’m a happy person and lately I haven’t been feeling like myself.
Screw you & goodbye asshole.

Why do I do that.. You don’t care so why should I? .. I hate that I’m still hoping for something that is hopeless… Fuck you.

I go to school everyday and put a fake smile on my face. I don’t want anyone to pity me. I’m a big girl and I will get over this. But it hurts so badly inside. It’s getting harder and harder to pretend I’m perfectly fine when I’m not..

It bothers the shit out of me how much I’m mad at you but I can’t be.. I’m so sick in my stomach knowing I truly still have feelings for you but I want to be over you. You hurt me so badly in so many ways.. during the relationship and especially afterwards. I really hate you. I really do. But I can’t act like I don’t like you. Seeing you post things online like nothing is wrong makes my heart drop. And for you to say hi to me in school hallway like really. I can’t deal with it. Every time I see you I wanna strangle you. Every time I think about you I wanna cry. The pain is real and I hate you so much. How could you be so heartless….

I am more than furious. Are you kidding me?! You told everyone?!?! Do you know how disrespectful that is towards me?! You do not tell others about our private things. Those thins stay between us no matter what. I guess you’re just another clueless son of a bitch. I am more than angry… I want to freaking murder you right now. I cannot believe what you did.. Heartless monster.